Thursday, February 25, 2010


Hullo all

Well I don't really have much to say but I feel like I need to say something or I will just stop blogging completely - maybe thats a good thing.

As usual my rollercoaster of moods is on a different path again! This time its a better one though.  I have been exercising a lot more and actually enjoying it!  Maybe its because its not at the boring gym but at home playing on the Wii.  I know some people believe the Wii isn't really working out and I agree the benefit of going for a walk outside is a lot better... for them (and for anyone but anyway).  But for me, getting home and wanting to go for a walk when its 30 - 32 degrees (86 - 89.6 fahrenheit) and the humidity is still around 60%, the wanting is not there.  But coming home, turning on the Wii (and a fan) and then walking on my Wii for half hour - always at least 3000 steps, then another half hour of "aerobics" and seeing roughly how many calories I've burnt plus some yoga exercises to un-wind is the perfect 1 hour and 15 minutes for me.

Also at work we are conducting an audit and about 250 boxes of files have been coming in the past 3 weeks and now we are sending them back (will take another 4 weeks till it is complete) so my normal work day is so much more active now.  I am taping & moving at least 25 boxes a day and walking so much more.  I keep forgetting to wear a pedometer and I think I might buy one of those technical heartrate/calorie/steps etc watches to see how much I burn during the day.

Eating has been relatively good too - just watching what/how/when/why I am eating.

Apart from that I have just been working/exercising/studying and its not too bad right now :-)  I am going to work on my CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) and really focus on maintaining this positiveness and learning how to better deal with the downward ride of my rollercoaster.


Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Short & Sweet.

So since my last post I have been having constant urges to exercise - and I'm acting on those urges.  Exercised for an hour yesterday & today and going to stick with it.

Also I have found a perfect snack - few slices of chicken breast. Low cals, easy to eat & yummy!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

same old story

Well its been a while since I have posted anything but I don’t want to post some rubbish for the sake of it... however this will probably be rubbish.
So went out for a lovely dinner Saturday night with my BF to celebrate our 2 years – we took some photos and I had to hold back the tears.  I honestly  just felt so disgusted with myself and it was a bit of a wakeup call. I haven’t lost much weight because I don’t exercise enough and let myself eat crap sometimes and then rationalise it.
I just have no motivation to go to the gym – I do some exercise at home but not enough and I just don’t care anymore.  I still let my lack of self-confidence get in the way and I need to find this mojo somehow.  At this point in time I think I just have to force myself to exercise and hope that the enjoyment and wanting to exercise follows.
Any motivation would be great right now – how have you gotten yourself out of the funk before?

Saturday, February 6, 2010

What a week!

This week has been long. Very long. Very stressful. Very overwhelming. I have been mentally, physically & emotionally challenged this week but I am trying to see it as a personal challenge. I think if I can remain positive, acknowledge my feelings, work out what and why I am feeling the way I can do I will be able to deal with it better.

"School" (my night class) is going to be harder than I thought but I think if I work hard I will do well.  The next few months are going to be a good challenge on how to balance work/school/life together.

Also something that has really lifted my mood today (apart from massage & cleaning) is I/my blog was a topic on an American Weight Loss Surgery channel.  WOW! If anyone wants to check out the little mention the link is  Have a great weekend everyone - I have cleaning and studying to do!


Tuesday, February 2, 2010


Right now, this is my motivation (in no particular order):

- The Biggest Loser (Aust): I know that their weight loss isn't realistic and for most of them even attainable, but I can't help to be inspired & motivated by it.
- Amy & Catherine: awesome.inspiring.honest. enough said. 
- Haley Lewis (picture): host of biggest loser. She is a former olympic swimmer who has had a weight battle but is now looking so freaking fit & fine.
- Attending a beach wedding in 13 weeks.
- My best-super skinny who loves to run and eat well-friend who is visiting in 12 weeks. I haven't seen her in about a year and I want her to notice an actual difference.
- myself: I want to look back on this year and be close to goal and know I worked hard no matter what size I am or what the scales say. I don't want to feel like a "failure" anymore.

Have my first night class tomorrow - kind of nervous but excited. Next few months will be hard with getting into a decent routine and money wise but it will be worth it. I can do it. 

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