Happiness.

So the past week has been a good happy one :-)

Gymed 3 times, walked 2.8kms 2 times and played netball! Now for those who know netball, I usually play GS. A pretty low key position when it comes to moving around. Well this games I played GS then GA for other 3 quarters and it was hard but fuck I felt good after (except for when I got smashed in the nose and had a nice swollen blue nose for a few days) but feeling really good.

So I joined a new gym which I'm feeling great about (it has only been 1 week though). It's kind of like a curves (female only circuit training) mixed in with Weight Watchers). They weigh you twice a week, you talk with a weight/food/mind consultant twice a week, they also do your measurements once a month and have some really good motivation tools and challenges. So I went yesterday morning and apparently lost 700g in 4 days yay!

Hope everyone is having a good weekend - I have been having a great one.

Things I am grateful for:
1 - my family
2 - my loving supportive bf
3 - our adorable little town house we are turning into a home
4 - a job!
5 - happiness

xo

Weekend Fun

Hi Everyone

So this weekend has been great. It was my friend's hens night on Saturday and I had a massage booked Sat morning so after I thought I would have a little bit of a shop.

Bought myself this beautiful size 14 dress from Witchery (I'm no where near a size 14 pants and sizing is all over the place but I am sticking to witchery for dresses and skirts because they fit and look good AND even if size 14 in Witchery = size 16 or 18 in other stores, I don't care, the mental happiness and positveness I get from buying a size 14 is worth it). Anyway been eyeing this dress off for a while but never tried it on because I never though it would fit, I also bought this cute little casual dress as well. Only problem is sleeves. I DO NOT show my arms. I absolutely loathe them and find them utterly disgusting so everything I own has sleeves or I wear a cardi or jacket.. which makes it very uncomfortable in summer time but I'm going to work on my arms.

Also got my nails done at a little asian nail place but for $20 they look good. I am a serial nail biter but at the moment they are looking decent and having my nails done makes me feel so pretty and nicely groomed. Want to stick to it.

Also went out to dinner last night for my brother's birthday. Went to Mecca Bah. Mmmm my favourite place! It's a mix of turkish & morroccan food but I only had a mouthful of chicken and a few mouthfuls of brown rice and tabouleh, however, I drank SO much last night so there was probably a lot of calories.. oh well it was so worth it.

Almost exercised everyday this week, was sent to Sydney for work unexpectedly but I did a fair amount of walking on Friday and all weekend so not too worried. I have noticed a change in my body from just walking for an hour everyday but this week I am going to try to increase the exercise with some pilates & weights at night.

Feeling good (mentally) at the moment and that is my biggest battle half the time. Physically, well after 4 tequilla shots, about 6 hawian margaritas, 2 vodka & sodas and a few champanges, I'm feeling pretty damn seedy hehe

Hopefully I have some decent looking pics of myself and will post some new ones soon :-)

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Hi anyone still reading this

Haven't been on in a while or even writing anything midly interesting but I guess my mind has been on other things, more important than the band... * gasp * haha yes my band isn't my no.1 thing in my life.. maybe it should be.

But every day last week I walked an hour, I walk 30mins in the morning to work and 30mins after work, along the river and over this great bridge with the sunshine in my face and I am loving it! It's 2.8km and I would love to be able to jog at least one trip by my birthday.

I also borrowed The Gabriel Method from the library - some may know about this book.. another weight loss book. But its more than that. Its a really simple, scientific, mental & emotional approach to weight loss and WHY you are fat, scientifically and I think its really helping my mind frame, which is my biggest trouble lately. I am letting everything get to me, scales, clothes, food.. just beating myself up but I am getting better.

If anyone is reading this, please let me know, I enjoy blogging (most of the time) but am losing the motivation these days.

Why hello there...

Hey everyone

Well been offline while I move in with the BF - going great already :-)

Weight wise I don't know.. the scales haven't seemed to change at all the past month or so but I have to wake up and be honest. I am not putting any effort in. Sure I am eating well but I'm just not exercising at all and could probably cut back on some of the sweets.

I had a little break down with my band doctor and he was suprisingly really comforting and reassuring.

I have unpacked and settled and now have no more excuses and today in a fit of enthusiasm I bought some tights and slip on runner type shoes and walked 30mins (to a bus station) and I am aiming to do that at least either to or from work every day (maybe even both ways if I feel like it).

I am also reading a really good book all about getting the mind frame right so everyone please send me positive weight-losing vibes hehe

Hope everyone else is going well.

Heyo

Well I haven't blogged in a while and I think I might take a little break.

I'm moving out with my boyfriend next week so I'm just going to focus on eating well and exercising as much as I can.

Hope everyone remains happy and well.

Talk soon.
xo

KMF!

Well I am still feeling blah and down in this funk but enough is enough! I need to KEEP MOVING FORWARD!

It is exactly 10 weeks until my friend's wedding and I am going to lose 10kg by then. I've got my own steps/action plan. Here it is:

1. I am going to get my mum to hide the scales and forget about them. I don't need them making me feel bad about myself.

2. Getting back to basics. I'm freezing my gym membership, I don't enjoy it and won't go if I don't enjoy it. Going to start walking during my lunch breaks and home from the train station and only do fun exercise.

3. Walk and/or do Wii Fit for at least 45mins 4 to 5 times a week.

4. Go to weight watcher meetings weekly or at least fortnightly for the next month or two. They have helped me before and there is a local one that is a 25min walk there so I can walk there and back :-)

I figure if I just do it and put the mental crap out of my mind and move on from it, my mind will be forced to be positive.

I know some people might be like well duh just do it, but its never as easy as that. But I seemed to have some sort of epiphany and its like "just do it" forget the mind shit and the scales. It's simple equation. Eating less + moving more = hot ass! hahaha.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Maddie
xo

Blah... Still.

Okay so I am still down in this crappy blah funk.

I hate the scales. Absolutely hate them. I hate how they control and determine my outlook for the day (yes don't say "oh well don't let it get to you or don't look at it") but I do weigh myself every day and it does get me down. Really down sometimes.

It just seems there is always 1 or 2 things in your life that isn't how you want it.
Work is good. Past the new person phase and already getting annoyed with things ha.
Money is good. Well will be soon. Consolidating some debt and will have it paid off sensibly over time and still have all my savings plus more.
Boyfriend is great. We've bought some furniture and whitegoods and getting serious about finding a place. Been looking for hours the past few weekends but haven't been fighting about it much and we are both excited to be making the next big step.
Friends are normal-ish. Everyone is going well, meeting up with some old acquantainces soon and need to put myself out there with my friends but I am missing one of my old besties (who pushed me away and cut me off for no reason). When something good or bad happens I just want to tell her, and my BF lives literally a 1 min drive from her house so I pass her street every weekend about 8 times and its hard.

Last but not least - weight. It seems to be sitting at the same amount and I hate it. I keep comparing myself to others which I know I shouldn't do but I do. I;m going to talk to a dietician next week. A friend of mine is studying to be a nutrionist/dietician and I was talking to her and she said I may not be eating enough kJs to lose weight and might be eating too many for starvation mode (so I'm sitting in between and my body is just holding onto the minimal kJs I am eating in case it doesn't get anymore) - so she enouraged me to talk to my Dr's dietician.

Anyways that's enough whinging negative nancy crap. I am going to sit down tonight and think of some Non Scale Victories (NSV) and other positives that don't involve 1 fucking number and post them tomorrow and print them off to have on my visualisation board.

Hope everyone else is feeling and going a little better than me. Oh I am going to an engagement party this weekend so will post some new pics of me. The scales may not be changing but I personally think my body shape certainly is.

Maddie
xo