Thursday, July 23, 2009


Well I haven't blogged in a while and I think I might take a little break.

I'm moving out with my boyfriend next week so I'm just going to focus on eating well and exercising as much as I can.

Hope everyone remains happy and well.

Talk soon.

Friday, July 10, 2009


Well I am still feeling blah and down in this funk but enough is enough! I need to KEEP MOVING FORWARD!

It is exactly 10 weeks until my friend's wedding and I am going to lose 10kg by then. I've got my own steps/action plan. Here it is:

1. I am going to get my mum to hide the scales and forget about them. I don't need them making me feel bad about myself.

2. Getting back to basics. I'm freezing my gym membership, I don't enjoy it and won't go if I don't enjoy it. Going to start walking during my lunch breaks and home from the train station and only do fun exercise.

3. Walk and/or do Wii Fit for at least 45mins 4 to 5 times a week.

4. Go to weight watcher meetings weekly or at least fortnightly for the next month or two. They have helped me before and there is a local one that is a 25min walk there so I can walk there and back :-)

I figure if I just do it and put the mental crap out of my mind and move on from it, my mind will be forced to be positive.

I know some people might be like well duh just do it, but its never as easy as that. But I seemed to have some sort of epiphany and its like "just do it" forget the mind shit and the scales. It's simple equation. Eating less + moving more = hot ass! hahaha.

Have a good weekend everyone.


Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Blah... Still.

Okay so I am still down in this crappy blah funk.

I hate the scales. Absolutely hate them. I hate how they control and determine my outlook for the day (yes don't say "oh well don't let it get to you or don't look at it") but I do weigh myself every day and it does get me down. Really down sometimes.

It just seems there is always 1 or 2 things in your life that isn't how you want it.
Work is good. Past the new person phase and already getting annoyed with things ha.
Money is good. Well will be soon. Consolidating some debt and will have it paid off sensibly over time and still have all my savings plus more.
Boyfriend is great. We've bought some furniture and whitegoods and getting serious about finding a place. Been looking for hours the past few weekends but haven't been fighting about it much and we are both excited to be making the next big step.
Friends are normal-ish. Everyone is going well, meeting up with some old acquantainces soon and need to put myself out there with my friends but I am missing one of my old besties (who pushed me away and cut me off for no reason). When something good or bad happens I just want to tell her, and my BF lives literally a 1 min drive from her house so I pass her street every weekend about 8 times and its hard.

Last but not least - weight. It seems to be sitting at the same amount and I hate it. I keep comparing myself to others which I know I shouldn't do but I do. I;m going to talk to a dietician next week. A friend of mine is studying to be a nutrionist/dietician and I was talking to her and she said I may not be eating enough kJs to lose weight and might be eating too many for starvation mode (so I'm sitting in between and my body is just holding onto the minimal kJs I am eating in case it doesn't get anymore) - so she enouraged me to talk to my Dr's dietician.

Anyways that's enough whinging negative nancy crap. I am going to sit down tonight and think of some Non Scale Victories (NSV) and other positives that don't involve 1 fucking number and post them tomorrow and print them off to have on my visualisation board.

Hope everyone else is feeling and going a little better than me. Oh I am going to an engagement party this weekend so will post some new pics of me. The scales may not be changing but I personally think my body shape certainly is.


Friday, July 3, 2009


So this has been a massive blah week. feeling pretty low about myself and everything. Damn freaking scales :-(

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