Hello Again.

Well it has been a while since I posted.

Things were getting pretty low for me (mentally) and I was really feeling pretty crap about myself and everything but things are ok. Had a good eating/exercise week last week and felt better than I had in a long time.

Started fulltime work this week and body is struggling to stay awake hehe but after this week I am going to get into a good exercise routine - I need to get that part together. I have a fulltime job now for at least 4 mths so time to get everything else together.

Hope everyone else is doing well - all kicking ass I'm sure!

SM
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I think I can, I think I can.. I know I can (and you too)!

All aboard the life train, the next stop is "finally feeling like things are working out" which is in between "things are crap" and "things are going well" stations.

Restriction: I have some finally yay! Actually had a proper PB and know my limits and what food I can handle so feeling relieved about that. The weight is coming off too which is motivating and a relief.

Jobs: Well yesterday I was offered a 4 mth contract role which I was pretty psyched about. At least a contract is a little more stable and if they have to let me go early they have to give me at least 2 weeks notice and I also accrue sick + annual leave (which I won't take any of the AL so should get a few days pay out when I finish yay). I was on a high all day - especially since on Monday I had a massive break down about it. One agency called me at 9.40am asking if I could be at a job by 10.00am. I couldn't guarantee I would be there by then so she said "oh well, I'll call someone else". I pretty much broke down to mum and was just over it. Over agencies, interviews, rejection, waiting and no money!

Today I got a phone call from another company I had an interview with last week. This role is a permanent role (obviously something I want) as a PA to the Director of the company. I found out I had made it to the final stage (after 2 interviews and testing already) and I will finally be meeting with the Director Fri morning and its between me and another woman.

WOOOFUCKINGHOOOOO!

I have a good feeling about this and all week have been imagining how good it would feel to actually have to turn a company down instead of myself being turned down lol.
I am looking forward to: working 6 days a week (haha crazy I know), paying off debt, getting my savings in order and not feeling so fucking down anymore.

So feeling good and being exercising everyday this week and noticing changes in my body shape. It has taken a little longer than I wanted/expected and its been harder with the external circumstances which I couldn't foresee but better late than never :-D

So if anyone happens to read this and feeling like they aren't doing as good as everyone else or failing... you're not. You're body is working in its own way and it might take longer, and you mind need more fill. No one else knows what your eating and exercising habits were before or what is completely going on in your life now so forget about the others and what they might be saying because they are not you!!

lol ok enough of my Oprah speech, just feeling good and I hope everyone else is too.

SM

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Over It... ugh!

I think I have a problem (actually I know I have lots) but jeeze one day I am so happy, the next I spend all night crying (no that wasn't me last night lol).

Everything just seems so hard at the moment ok really only 3 things : job, money and weight loss.

Job front - still don't know about the temp govt job which is annoying, I have an interview on Thursday for a 3 mth contract role but the market is soo hard at the moment and slow. This job issue leads on to money issues.

Money - I need it lol. Luckily I am working 1 day a week at a real estate office so thank god I will now be getting some money in weekly but I now have no savings and credit card debt (thanks band) and it is depressing. I had so many things I wanted to do/have done this year by now and they all have to be pushed back like 6 mths plus and it just gets hard. When I moved to Melb I had no $ and when I moved back here I had no $ so I know I can get back to where I was financially 6 mths ago but it just depressing.

Weight loss - Ugghh its so annoying seeing everyone else's different weight loss, some people same weight as me has lost double in half the time or not much in triple the time. It's frustrating oh and I am possibly (hopefully) getting more fill tonight and I think I will be at my sweet spot which is good because I feel like my band is taking its time to kick in lol but I just wish everyone was the same lol. Oh and in the mornings I like my weight loss but because Dr does fills in the arvo/night by the time I get there at 6.00pm tonight I will be at my *heaviest* for the day and its like nooo the scales were better this morning ugh, feel like a failure sometimes.

Anyways hope everyone else is going well.
Skinnie Minnie
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Feeling Good.

Today was a good day and I am feeling inspired knowing I can do this, especially now that I have restriction. One of the nurses called me this arvo to see if I still wanted the appointment next week for more possible fill and I asked her about the band and how come I have so much fill in and she simply said "thats how much fill your body needs" and reminded me everyone is different and I might find that another few mls and I am already at my sweet spot instead of f*ing around for a few more fills. She also reminded me I am "smaller" and that I am feeling more restriction now so clearly my band is working and nothing is wrong with it so yay over all feeling pretty good.

Plus today I went on the WiiFit for an hour, gym for 45mins plus about 30mins of housework and I have another job interview on Friday for a role that sounds perfect for me and promising so things are looking up :-)

SkinnieMinnie
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Restriction... Yay! Loss... Double Yay!

Well I can't remember what I last posted about and if I have discussed my last fill (yes I know I could look back on previous posts but I dont really care that much haha). So I had 1.5mls put in bringing me up to 10.5mls in my 14ml band and I feel restriction YAY

I still need to slow my food right down but on Saturday night the boy and I went out for dinner and i had my fave linguini marina at the best italian place I have ever been and I have 4 mussels, 3 sml prawns, a few pieces of scallop and then about 5-6 tablespoons of pasta over about 30-45mins and I was full and I stopped at the right time (ok maybe could have had one less mouthfull of pasta) but I had 3/4 of my pasta left but I was pretty happy with myself, BB (before band) I would have eaten it all! So when I eat slowly I notice I am way fuller and not hungry for a good 4-5hrs later which I think is good for me. So goal this week - eat SLLOOOWWW!

So w.end was really nice but had major dramas with the hotel (too long and boring to go into) but I took matters into my own hand it all worked out nicely in the end - a room upgrade and a bottle of Bollinger champagne for being verbally abused by one of their staff members. This is my year and I don't need to put up with being ripped off and abused so I felt good about myself.

Oh and according to the scales last night I have lole 1.1kg since last Tuesday YAY I decided I am going to stick to Dr scales (I am seeing him next week which will be good). Weighing myself 3 times in 10mins isn't healthy and just messes with my head.

So today I was too tired (and hot) to go to the gym but I ended up doing 36mins on the WiiFit (lol its only WiiFit I know) but I did some yoga, muscle work and aerobics and felt good about it. I like how it tracks your progress and has a graph for you and weighs you and helps you set goals. I also did those daily exercises from the "28 Days" program which I haven't done for about a month :-S oops lol so although no gym still feeling good about doing something and I have a job interview tomorrow YAY!

Skinnie Minnie
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ooopps :-S haha

Okay so had the fill and according to the Dr scales I have GAINED (yes gained) .3kg, nurse & Dr were both really good saying that because of my cycle and being at 7.00pm at night I would weigh more than if they weighed me in the morning so I wasn't too upset about it really (haha should I be, I dunno lol) but I am going to use it as motivation. Dr said I would probably have to work a little harder because I am "smaller" so I am taking it on board and gonna work my ass off and really watch what I eat because I am seeing him again in 2 weeks.

Oh so I now have 10.5ml in a 14ml band - I REALLY hope this is the real restriction feeling this time and my next fills are only like .5ml or something.

Anyways I'm off to dinner with a friend tonight, I hope it goes ok, I don't plan this very well hahaha.

Peace out everyone.

Skinnie Minnie
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Fill & the Bees (Bridget & Bel)

My Fill is actually tonight hehe. Really excited yay! It is so hot & humid today, I can't be assed going to the gym but I am going to try. I did go swimming last night and did 10 laps, not much but better than nothing.

Also two friends of mine are having a bit of a tiff and I am going to stay out of it and no taking sides or gossiping etc I don't to get involved in their toxic crap.

Ohh and I think I have some good potential long-term temp roles next week and I have 2 interviews on Thursday & Friday so yay things are picking up and I can't wait to go away this w.end with my gorgeous man. We're not really celebrating V.Day that much but it is our 1 yr which is big for me so I need to think of something to get him but I am going to surprise him with a romantic picnic on the beach on Saturday :-) can't wait. I'll let you know tonight how the fill goes and thanks to Bridget & Bel for the supportive comments, its really reassuring and comforting knowing other people get you and understand you and everything you're going through so thanks!

Skinnie Minnie
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