Keep your friends close.. keep your enemies closer.

So I've started reading a few message boards about lapbanding and whoa are there some crazy people about.. I thought that a site where everyone could talk about the same issue (being a boombah obviously) and offer helpful advice and tips would be great but it seems everyone (or mainly a few crazy people) are just backstabbing each other and bringing each other down!

Firstly it is just a yahoo message board - get a life!
Secondly shouldn't we be supporting our fellow fattie (anonymously of course) instead of going crazy on their asses and ruining the blogs for everyone else. It's pretty funny though, its some sort of Days of Our Lives - McDonald's style.

This may seem weird and thinking about it kind of is but isn't but I've never had any fat friends, I've always been that fat friend which is maybe why at times I've felt so isolated to my friends, if they only knew that the funny bubbly confident exterior was just one massive fake.

I've found that since I have a date now for the surgery I am constantly thinking about the band and being fat and being skinny and socialising with friends and it just seems to have consumed me but I guess when you have to consider your weight with every aspect of your life (like fuck I feel fat on this train seat, no one is sitting next to me because they won't fit) it becomes natural to have it consume your life.. hmm I wonder what it will be like when I am half my size... A lot of people have said that the mental changes are the hardest.

I am glad I have my "personal online for everyone to see and laugh at diary" to write in. I wasn't really going to keep a track of all the physical stuff but I think I might - on a weekly basis starting from 1 week before the band.

For anyone who is reading this, feel free to comment or reply or whatever bloggers do or ask questions or just say hi to let me know people are out there?!

SkinnieMinnie
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