falling rollercoaster

I feel as I approach my 1 yr since the band my motivation, happiness, proudness and encouragement is falling. I was heading up on the roller coaster but now I worry it starting to fall, fast.

I'm honestly really unhappy and ashamed of what little I have lost but i am trying to remember that at least I have lost. I so desperately want to achieve my nye goal! ughh positive thoughts and lots of exercise is in order.

have a great wend ya'll
struggling