Friday, October 30, 2009

Deep Breaths

*breathe in – breathe out – breathe in – breathe out*

So that ex-bestfriend who no longer talks to me – I just saw her.

She had her back to me and was kind of starting to turn around and I just walked right past her into a store – which I hid in for about 5mins trying not to vomit with my heart beating out of my chest – then I ventured out to actually try to find her but she was gone.

So stupid me just emailed her and I regret it now. I am so disappointed in myself for letting this still get to me and apart of me wishes I went up to try to talk to her to see how she reacted. I guess if she doesn’t email me back then I know and next time I see her – I can walk right past without wondering if she saw me or how she would react because I do not need or deserve this in my life and its time for me to really move on.

But on a positive note I have been working my butt off again this week J The gym I go to – they weigh you 3 times a week (if you want) and I lost 300g between Monday night and Wednesday night J hoping to fit in a quick work out tonight before my weigh in tomorrow morning – which is the weigh I take most notice of – I really want to see a good shift.

I’m feeling pretty good mentally lately and really hope it stays like this for a while. I now have 40 followers woohoo! If you follow and actually read this blog please say hi or ask any Q’s – sometimes I don’t know if people actually care what I am blabbing about or something.


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